Yes, I realize it’s been a year since I took a hiatus stating I was back, but this time I’d really like to get back into this. Last year was one of my least favorite years, with some family stuff, work stuff, and another complete let down romantically, but I’m hoping 2016 will kick it’s ass.
I dramatically changed my work situation, branching off on my own, which has always been a dream of mine. Everyone said “it will be hard,” and “running a business takes all of your time in the beginning,” and I laughed it off, because of course, it would be different for me. IT WASN’T. I have been living and breathing this for the last few months, and while I don’t regret a thing and am happy with my move, I am completely ready for things to regulate a bit, and to get my social life back. (Why did ‘Regulators’ just pop in my head haha).
I started the year with a great outlook, wanting to focus on me (which I think every single girl says at some point), and I really meant it. I want to kick ass in this business, feel great about myself and accomplish some lofty but very attainable goals. By January 15th, I also recognized I would like to meet a guy who will embrace my bold personality and wants to have sex all the time. I don’t really think that’s too much to ask. Balancing it all is very easy.
While I was in my independent woman mentality, my friends were developing relationships with men. While I’m incredibly happy for them, and genuinely like the people they are dating, being the only single one is awkward. I do realize I have made 0 effort to meet anyone, as in I don’t leave my house if I’m not at work or Target, and the one time I went out I was blackout for a friend’s birthday and have flashes of fixating on how old some cute guy was (ugh).
I was having a pity party for one last week, and texted my mom about being single, which I should know better than to do. First, she challenged if “all of my friends” were single by naming off different friends, as if I hadn’t analyzed this to death before sending my ‘whoa is me’ text message. Yes Mom, Kathy, Lucy and Kristy are ALL dating people now. Yes, they all met them online, which was incredibly unsuccessful for me. I don’t need to date any more bracelet makers, house plants and egg nogs of the world again, which is who I attract online. NEVER AGAIN. She then follows with “well then you’ll be next.” *Mind blown.* Obviously!!!! That’s like stating the last person in the marathon will be the next one to cross the finish line. I morphed into a cartoon dragon, smoke blowing out of my nose, and sent a slew of angry texts back. Poor, Mom.
If you’ve ever tried to make someone feel better when they are in a funk, stop. Just..don’t. They have made up their mind and they want you to listen to them scream, make a joke maybe, nominate them for that reality dating show that needs to be created starring them, or start scouring the Earth for the amazing husband for my arranged marriage.
So in an attempt to end the pity party, I have created a list of reasons I don’t hate being single:
- How would I balance binge watching 90210 with dating? I just don’t think I’m willing to give that up yet. I’m only on Season 4. Side note: has anyone watched this as an adult? It’s much more ‘ABC Family After School Special’ than I remember.
- I don’t have to share any of the delicious new recipes I’ve been trying with anyone. Groceries last a very long time.
- Valentine’s Day – No pressure to find the perfect gift, obsess over what to write in the card, feign excitement over the gigantic stuffed animal he bought you from Walgreens when he remembered it was VD on his way over to your house.
- I have minimal wrinkles because I actually get sleep. Happens much more easily when you aren’t up having crazy sex, or dealing with your screaming baby who refuses to sleep.
- My house is immaculate because I have
nothing else to doso much more balance in my life. - I am back to consistently working out since I have to find creative ways to release the insane amount of sexual frustration building up so I don’t rage out on people.
- I have done copious amounts of informative research, such as “How much time has to pass before you’re considered a born again Virgin,” and “Can one actual die from sexual frustration?” This just makes me a much more well rounded individual and are clearly great conversation starters.
Any pointers on how to get over this funk are welcome, as always. Also, I am currently accepting applications for men who think they can handle all this sass.
Have a great one!